Today was a pretty low key Friday at home. Olivia woke up VERY early this morning. So, she and I hung out in my bed, watching some cartoons and cuddling, while Amelia slept in. We gals hung out through the morning..making a mess, eating some snacks, playing with every toy in the house. The usual. It was finally time for naps, and they couldn't have come sooner. I was pretty tired after our early wake up call.
During nap time, I spent some quality time with the DVR, and, unfortunately, with my thoughts. I'm getting a little overwhelmed at our money situation again. I know we shouldn't complain, we are more fortunate than many, MANY people. I truly understand that. But all I want is to drag ourselves out of the debt we're in so badly. I just think of everything we need....the dog and the cats need to get to the vet, we need car seats for Amelia, winter gear for both girls, and warm clothes for Olivia, I'm going to have to buy a bridesmaid dress, flower girl dress and throw a bachelorette party for my best friend, both vehicles need oil changes and a cleaning. How we're going to afford that when our line of credit is maxed out, our credit card is so charged up that we can barely make the minimum payment and we literally live pay check to pay check. Ugh, SO FRUSTRATING.
Then, the jealous side of me comes out. When people around us get new, fun things, when people can live on one income. I think of the decisions we've made in the past, that have gotten us to where we are now, and I just hang my head in shame.
When I'm left alone with my thoughts long enough, it all starts to catch up to me. I know that we're going to be fine in the end. I know that we'll just keep cutting, and cutting for as long as it takes, and eventually our savings will not only exist, but go up and up. That someday just can't come soon enough though! Every time we get paid, I sit there, starring at our budget for what seems like hours figuring out what I need to move and shift to pay the bills and expenses that check. I've just had enough of the budget stress!
Eventually, the girls were up, and I was thoroughly distracted. Not to mention, reminded of the more important things in life! Christian arrived home, we ate some dinner and just spent the evening hanging out together. We were both pretty exhausted, and off to bed soon after the girls went down. Another fun filled day for the Durans!
Olivia is very into forts now...
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