Nope, not adjusting. Not adjusting at all. Not interested in getting up at 5:00AM, or leaving my girls for all of those hours, or working 9.5 hours, but 1 hour drive time. There is still absolutely no part of me that wants to be at work, and it's killing me. I've always loved working...it was a huge part of who I am, and I do still feel that way. But I just can't shake that feeling that I should be home with my girls. That guilt. Oh, I hate that guilt.
But, I feel back into the swing of things at least. It feels good connecting with my close co-workers again, and diving back into things. As I talked with said co-workers, we came upon the realization that somehow I was still buried under my inbox, including many new requests, yet everyone else appears to be rather caught up right now. I did not really care for that realization. Oh well, like I always say, busy makes the day go fast!
I was still overwhelmed by the thought of Amelia being one now. I mean, I have a one and a two year old, how is that remotely possible?!? To think, a year ago we were in the hospital, VERY few visitors, and plenty of time to relax and stare at our newest family member. I was still beaming with pride, not only over her wonderfulness, but with my own hard work and success. I swear, I can remember those first few days like they were yesterday...
I've definitely said it before, but today I made the decision to get myself back on track. Next Monday, diet and exercise are going to become my best friends. I spent some time today coming up with a daily schedule to see how I can fit everything in. I am going to get back into my menu planning, which helps a lot both financially and in staying on track. I am going to start walking the tunnels at work on my breaks, and doing that 60 Day Slimdown program I have. I have way too many reasons to do this, and be successful, to just keep avoiding it. So, here's hoping I can really stick to it and do what I need to do...finally!
Here is Amelia's One Year photo…she has graduated to the banister, just like her big sister!
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