3/29/11 – Still Functioning, But Barely

Well, of course, you know the drill…another bad night at our house! Although, I will admit, it STARTED badly, but then wasn’t so bad. Amelia was up pretty early, and I was just so upset. I am so beyond exhausted, I don’t even think most people could understand it at this point. So, when she woke up, so soon after going down, I just cried. I cried, she cried, we cried together. There was nothing more I could do at that point…the frustration, the stress, the exhaustion, my sore body, my burning eyes….it all just caught up with me in that moment.

Christian eventually came in, and of course all of my emotions came boiling over and I started a big fight with him. Like it was his fault she wasn’t sleeping! Like usual, he insists that we should start giving her cereal, which just makes me even more upset. For one, because I have no interest in giving her cereal, but more importantly, because she’s not waking up because she’s hungry. I am SURE of it. When she wakes up, I feed her…she only actually nurses for 2 or 3 minutes, then it’s just a comfort thing…she’s not even eating.

So, my fighting ended up waking up Olivia (mom of the year right there), so Christian had to go get her back down. I ended up just sleeping, sitting up, “feeding” Amelia for a good hour or so. I woke up, she was passed out, so I just laid her next to me and fell asleep. Luckily she stayed down the rest of the night/morning.

Other than that, the day was pretty normal. I’ve spent the last few working days thinking I was finally catching up and making a dent in my work…meanwhile my box of new requests has been filling up somehow. Not sure how I missed that. So, back to square one! I haven’t heard any more about a government shutdown, or the employee bills going through the legislature lately. Christian hasn’t heard anything about the job he applied for. I assume they’ll do interviews, but he hasn’t heard anything. After work, I stopped quick to drop something off to my BFF, and was rewarded with yummy cookies and a muffin! YUM. Christian and I arrived home at the same time, played outside for a bit with Olivia and Chuy, then made a yummy taco dinner together. After a little playing, it was time for our latest task…lowering Amelia crib a step because our new idea is to just go ahead and try having her sleep in the kids’ room, in her own crib. LORD help me, I don’t see this going well! Fingers crossed though.

I also have to add that today is my stepmom’s birthday, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY Renny!

Here is a shot of Amelia in her crib. How is it that at 8 months old she seems too small to be in it, yet Olivia seemed to fit right in at 3 months?!